I want to be able to shut off the thoughts in my head, they never do me any good anyway;

thanks to goodbyeheart_quotes ; i do believe I will be updating more often :)
these last 3 weeks before christmas break should be easy enough; so ill try to update every night, or every other night.

enjoy this update <3

I want to dive head first into your arms, give into your good looks and charms. Sleep all day and love all night; forgive every stupid, petty fight. I want to do more than sit and remember. I want to relive all the moments that you made me shiver.

So, hi. This is me. A human being. In all of my frailty, laying myself out for you, that we might walk through this beautiful, awful, strange thing we call life, together.
-To Write Love On Her Arms

"It's funny- when people call you "shy", they usually smile. Like it's cute, some funny little habit you'll grow out of when you're older, like the gaps in your grin when your baby teeth fall out. If they knew how it felt- really being shy, not just unsure at first- they wouldn't smile. Not if they knew how the feeling knots up your stomach or makes your palms sweat or robs you of the ability to say anything that makes sense. It's not cute at all."

Everyone has this idea that teenage girls are so hard to understand. Well, lets break it down. We live on profound lyrics, thought-provoking late night conversations, lame inside jokes with the friends we know we’ll always have, music, and boys that take the time to become involved with the three things I just mentioned.

And she's the cliche of teenage tragedy. A band-aid on her heart and a bruise on her arm where her heart used to be on her sleeve.

Here, let me tie your shoelaces so you won't fall for anyone else.

sometimes in order for something beautifully
miraculous to happen, you have to make it through
a terrible tragedy with hope for a better tomorrow.

"I want him. I don't even think he's perfect anymore
and I still want him."
- Wicked

 I hate it when people say that they have given up on love.
And it's always because they think love has hurt them when in actuality,
it was a person, it was a thing, a wrong decision, a bad mistake, an accident.
So don't let go of love, hold on because I promise you
it's always worth your while

Slow down silly teenage girl, this is your heart speaking. Remember last time? Remember the tears? And how could you forget the hurt that he put you through? The pain that he put us through. Be a good girl for once; Let him chase you, because in the end, who ends up with a bandaid on on them? It sure ain't your knee, my dear.
[orginally belongs to me; i found a lot of websites, saying it was theirs; so not cool; haha]

Take a chance. Wear your heart on your sleeve. Ask the most attractive guy in the room to dance. Say what you want. Demand what you're entitled to. There's a pretty decent chance that you won't get it, but who will you be if you never even try?

i believe in love, and everlasting trust;
i believe in every fairy tales comes true, in its own time.
some of us just give up on them, and stop looking for it;
never give up, your soulmate just might be your best friend or the boy
you have yet to meet, I promise you; he's out there.
looking just as hard, for you.
-hippielove_quotes;

If being crazy means living life as if it matters, then I don’t mind being completely insane.
-Revolutionary Road

Didn't you see the movie? Where he realizes he still needs her. Did you read the story where he chases her down all through the town cause she's the best thing that he ever had?

So this thing where we all pretend to keep our distance is usually a load of bull, so we pick and choose who we want to remain close to and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stay close by no matter how much we hurt them.

As the record on her stereo plays her favorite song for two whole days & the track stretched out for miles & miles, & what she'd give for one more smile, & how she hoped he missed her because God how she missed how he would kiss her.

But I'm not breaking down & I'm not falling apart. I just lost a little faith when you broke my heart. Given a chance I might try it again, but I wouldn't risk it all this time.

When you develop an infatuation with someone, you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn't need to be a good reason.

poll; what's your favorite love song?

celina; probably then by brad paisley; it makes me happy :D
but there are so manyyy <3

You look tired? Up all night, thinking about me?

i'm bored; enjoy the update :)

When you're young everything feels like the end of the world. But it's not; it's just the beginning. You might have to meet a few more jerks, but one day you're gonna meet a boy who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. Like the sun rises and sets with you.

Sweetie, I'm over you. Now it's time to get over yourself.

I am coming to terms with the fact that loving someone requires a leap of faith, and that a soft landing is never guaranteed.
-Sarah Dessen

No matter what you do to me, I'm still here. For some odd reason, I stick around and put up with all your mood swings and unkind words. I just let your comments roll off me into a puddle on the floor. I make up excuses on why you didn't call, try to think of all the answers. I keep going back for more even though sometimes you push me away. I don't know if I can do better, but do I really want to? You're quick to push me down when all I want is to be brought up. When I walk out for good, when I really gain the strength I need, then maybe you will see. Maybe you can look back and say, "Wow that girl really did love me."

He has the ability to make me smile faster than someone can snap their fingers.

It's just a horrible, uneasy feeling to say goodbye to someone you care about that much...

She wouldn't care if you called her & woke her up just to talk at two in the morning. She loves arguing, & she's good at it. Scary movies make her paranoid. She hates it when people don't call her back. She envies every couple she sees walking around showing their happiness. She only wants to be happy & lately all she thinks about is you.

You hug him goodbye like it's nothing, while all you want to do is hold on forever, but you let go, smile & walk away, then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same. Because try as you might, you can't make someone love you. Sometimes you have to let them be free, & letting go, that is when love hurts the most of all.

Ohana means family. Family means no one is left behind - or forgotten.
( Lilo & Stitch )

So suck your so called pity down.
Hey, that's not so bad is it.
Take your cold cold heart and drown,
and dont forget to take deep breaths.

"Don't throw yourself out on another's whim. People change, as do intentions and as a result, consequences. Live for yourself. Love those around you, but realize that they've got their own agendas."
-Alex Gaskarth

I guess time has a way of making everything alright, it's just there is not enough of it.
-A Celebration Upon Completion; Bright Eyes

& I am out on my own, moving in shadow; nobody know who I am. Standing alone, & it's me but you can't see who I am.
( I Am ; Killing Heidi )

post: have you seen new moon? if you have, did you like it (:

me; i LOVEEEDDD it; when jacob didn't have his shirt in the very first scene when he didn't have it on? i was like "OH BABY!" and i made everyone laugh; goo me ^-^;

i think i'm going to start doing shorter post;
<3

maybe ill get more comments? haha
they  encourage me to actually sit my ass down and do this; haha

When you run out of whores, don't expect me to be there;

sorry about the whole not posting, I had been in a bad mood.
and the fact that I didnt get anything, made me sad.
because usually your comments make me happy :)

enjoy the post.

Well I could make this better; I could put up a fight
But I don't think you're worth it, I don't think you're worth
I'd rent my heart out for money just to make you believe me
Why won't you believe me, why won't you believe me
If I could just make this perfect, we could live out our lives
But it's better without you, it's better alone and
Everything is perfect, everything is falling apart

"I used to believe in something and something believed in me."

No fear, no doubt, I’ve bottomed out, I’ve lost myself, I’m letting go
No pride, no me, I’ve set them free, I’ve lost my mind and now I know

Wish I could just trust my lungs, but they’ve been abused too many times.

it's in these letters that we write to our friends and family
spilling secrets of our past, a brief history
packed with pills, alcohol, and cuts that run so deep
so we must stand up for the ones we love
and give them hope before they fall down
so they say i've lost and i've found, and i've found no way out
of this mess that we have made
so let me get this straight

I love my past. I love my present.
I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad because I have
it no longer.

 like sunrise better when I'm getting up early than when I'm staying up late, you know? It's like I'm seeing it from the wrong side.

Here's to all the pretty words we will never speak. Here's to all the pretty girls you're gonna meet. Am I breaking up? Is there trouble on the line? Did your heart break enough? Did your heart break enough this time? It feels good to be free.

If a person is single, it doesn't
really mean that he/she knows nothing
about love. In fact, going solo is a lot
wiser than being in a wrong relationship.

He was different.
He never said "I want to be friends" after he said goodbye. It was like he knew, he knew that he had broken my heart bad enough when he saw my tears fall. He knew me well enough that he just knew what to say. And when he spoke, he looked me in the eyes and said, "I hope you talk to me again someday." (yourbreakingme_qts)

Those words seemed so sincere
and I've been so lonely here.

This is our last broadcast.
We're recklessly looking for the truth,
and we'll tear this place apart.
There is hope for us yet.
Hope is there.

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you. How good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh. I daydream about you off & on, replaying pieces of our conversations; laughing at funny things that you said or did. I've memorized your face & the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together & even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; You're the best thing that has ever happened to me.

The way he says my name paints a smile across my face. I admit it, I'm crazy about the kid.

Your eyes are blue like the ocean, and baby, I'm lost out at sea. Did the sun just come out or did you smile at me?
-Stephen Jerzak

I'm breaking down, I'm falling down. But now I'm breathing, and now I am scared to move. Don't listen to a word I tell you, just take me by my hand and I swear I'll make this up to you.
-I Think About You Everyday; A Rocket to the Moon

Can I pull my arms around you? Cause I'd sure like to. I'll be the bright side of your bad day. I'll be the bright side of your bad night. I'll be the bright side of your bad day, if you'll be mine.
-Hey; Backseat Goodbye

And people are always asking how I'm doing, but every question still has you in it. And I never think about you, but you're always on my mind.

Don't feel stupid for missing him; even if he treated you like shit. You still had happy memories, & you're always going to miss them...don't try to replace him- because you won't. Just get through each day, & eventually it'll get better. I promise. Eventually someone will come into your life, & whether or not you realize it, they're going to be something special to you. So don't throw yourself at every guy you see, trying to replace him, or at least the dull memories because you're only going to make yourself see how hard he is to replace. Someone better will eventually come along.

poll; what do you want for christmas?

celina; i'm happy for now :) i haven't decided.

oh.my.hitler;

712 suscribers; thank you guys SO much.
ive gone a long way since i first started;
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i love each and every one of you.

When do you think it will all become clear?

I promised you guys a good post.

comment with your favorite?
I miss you guys :)

I feel like a bad site updater; haha

You have no right to say a single word about me, my choices, or my past, because you weren’t there. You didn’t get your heart broken. You didn’t watch him bounce right back.

Go after her, fuck, don't just sit there and wait for her to call, go after her, because that's what you should do if you love her. Don't wait for her to give you a sign because it might never come. Go scream you love her and be with her, because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really.

He's annoying, he's hilarious, he makes me yell, he drives me crazy, he's out of his mind, he's everything I want.

I like to take naps,
because when you wake up,
you forget all the crap,
going wrong in your life,
for a whole ten seconds.

Like it or not, something always seems to go wrong. Sometimes, people build you up just so they can knock you down. Sometimes, they have you there just cause they need someone around.
-Birds of a Feather; Phish

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands, and you stole her every dream, you crushed her plans. She never even knew she had a choice, & that's what happens when the only voice she hears is tellin' her she can't. You stupid boy.
-Stupid Boy; Keith Urban

Her heart is shattering, but not a sound is made
She's screaming her lungs out, but not a sound is made
She's dying inside, but not a sound is made
She's drowning in her tears, but not a sound is made
And now it's too late

its the worst feeling;
telling someone i love you more
and knowing that it's probably true

so go and wash your beautiful face
and lets watch the beautiful wash away
lets see your broken smile and the truth behind your eyes.

you sold your soul for an ounce of attention.
gaining the world and demanding affection.
will you ever be pleased with your own skin?
will you ever refuse what they're asking?
you can't hide your insecurities with a pretty face.

i've only grown stronger because that's what every step gave me.
my life may be complicated, but complication is what made me.

Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over.
-Gloria Naylor

Did you regret ever standing by my side? Did you forget what we were feeling inside? Now I'm left to forget about us. Somewhere we went wrong. Our love is like a song, but you won't sing along. You've forgotten about us

I watched you go. You've taken my heart with you, oh yes you did. Every time I tried to reach you on the phone, baby, you're never there. Girl, you're never home. So if I did something wrong please tell me, I wanna understand. 'Cause I don't want this love to ever end.
( If You Come Back ; Blue )

You got a girl but she ain't nothing like mine. Cute face, nice size like mine. Stay kitted, hood with it, like mine. Mean walk, talk the talk, let me tell you some more.
( Shortie Like Mine ; Bow Wow & Chris Brown )

I'm sweating bullets like a boy that has just been caught,
You say your love is all I need, but I don't need a lot.
You say you're sorry but I know that you're not.

&& im on this journey
not exactly sure where im going
new experiences, new friends
im starting my new life.
©wowxhowxsweet

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter, but only if I'm laughing with you.
-Life After You; Daughtry

What's different about us is that we're friends. Well, maybe we're not just friends. But the base of all we know is friendship. He may think I'm beautiful, but he'll still tease me about how he has to look down to see me. And we may cuddle up and watch movies, but we'll still laugh and make jokes about every line. We may hold hands, but we also get into fake fights that I know he lets me win every time. He gets mad when I don't think highly of myself, and I get mad when he won't tell me what's wrong. We know more about each other than anyone. And maybe that's the thing that makes it so perfect, that he's not just the friend or the lover, but he's the missing piece to my puzzle.

poll: what is your opinion on party in the usa by miley cyrus?

celina; i'm not going to lie; I'm addicted to it xD

I stink at keeping my mouth shut, so I guess I'm like your legs, you slut;

enjoy the post.
i'm happy <3

i just got my car! :D

Sometimes the only thing that people see is what you did. When in fact, they should be looking at why you did it.

When I'm sad and feeling blue, I hide in music and forget every memory of you.

Too many times we put our hearts on the line, hoping that this it's going to be different. Too many times we play the waiting game, because we are too afraid of making decisions.

All I want is one person. One person to hold me down and force me to say how I really feel.

There's only so much you can put her through before she stops trusting you.

Why do we miss a person? It's either because we realize that we never treasured the moments when they were always there and it left us wishing we could turn back time again. Or we were too happy with them, we enjoyed every single moment, that we became so used to the idea of having them around.

I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, but it only weighs me down. Don't get me wrong, I love you, but I won't wait around.
- ©prettyinpearls_quotes

Things will happen in your life that you can't stop. but that's no reason to shut out the world.
( Now & Then )

Can you take me back to the person I used to be
Back when you were there for me
I know it seems like forever but do me a favor please
Way back when we were stupid
held grudges just to help us sleep

Secret love, my escape
Take me far far away
Secret love, are you there
Will you answer my prayer

everybody talk. everybody listen.
but somehow its the truth
that always comes up missing.

Sometimes it makes me want to laugh.
Sometimes it makes me want to take my toaster in the bath.

If you're not happy with the person you're with,
Don't stay with them.
You're not magically going to wake up one morning
and decide you're going to be happy again.
Someone makes you that way.
Find the someone that makes you happy.

I'm not that good of a person. I make mistakes. I have regrets. I act like I'm a lot smarter than I actually am. I cry. I laugh way too loud and things just seem to get to me. Basically, I'm saying I'm not perfect. But when I'm with you, it doesn't matter. Because you make me smile.

I just want to scream and shout and cry and stomp my feet and fucking rip apart the world. But I guess I'll just settle for smiling faintly and acting like nothing is wrong with me

I want to be the first person that comes to your mind in the morning and the only person in your sweetest dreams because that's who you are to me.
- ©takeitwithyou_x3

Please don't come around talking 'bout that you love me 'cause that love shit just to fool me. I don't wanna hear that you adore me. & I know that all you're doing is playing your mind games. Don't you know that game beats game? So your best bet is to be straight with me.
( There You Go ; P!nk )

It doesn`t matter how he hurts you,
with his hands or with his words,
you don`t deserve it, it ain`t worth it ;
take your heart & run.
[ Jessica Simpson ; Remember That ]

He and I had something beautiful, but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last. I loved him so, but I let him go, cause I knew he'd never love me back. Such pain as this shouldn't have to be experienced; I'm still reeling from the loss, still a bit delirious. Near to you, I am healing, but it's taking so long. Cause though he's gone, and you are wonderful, it's hard to move on. Yet, I'm better near to you. You and I have something different, but I'm enjoying it cautiously. I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard to get back to who I used to be. He's disappearing, fading subtly, I'm so close to being yours. Yet, I'm better near to you.
-A Fine Frenzy

You couldn't erase the past,
you couldn't even change it.
But sometimes life offers you
the opportunity to put it right.

poll: if you could hang out with any celebrity for a day, who would it be?

celina; brad paisley! :D

it took me THREE days to do this.

i hit sumbit and RAWR! it all goes away
i'm highly upset; i have to go to homework
update on friday

:'(