I see no need.

to update this.

here's a pretty picture;

maybe, I'll update tomorrow
-shrug-

give me inspiration?
:D

It breaks my heart to see another tragedy.

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Love isn't him calming you down when you yell. It's him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and keep you grounded. It isn't him bringing you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear more presentable. It's after a long fight, that drains the life and bones out of both of you, and yet him showing up at your door the next morning anyway. It's not him saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. It's not him caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be alright. It's him standing there, admitting he's just as scared as you are. You have to remember that with love, you're not the only one involved. You've unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another person's hands and said, "Here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat, or forget I ever handed it to you."

This is for the night you realized that it would never happen and the sunrise you saw the next morning after falling asleep.

At first you think it's great you're talking to him again. But then you start talking about things that happened before...bringing back old memories, and then you realize how much you really miss him.

Most girls say they want a fairytale. But you taught me that that's not what I want. I want someone who will make fun of me and laugh at my jokes. Even if they aren't funny. And someone that wrestles with me and doesn't let me win just because I'm his girl. Yeah, riding off into the sunset on a white horse sounds like fun, but playing Guitar Hero sounds much better.

You're the one who broke my heart, you're the reason my world fell apart. You're the one who made me cry, yet I'm still in love with you & I don't know why.

Everyone has a weakness, but I have two:
everything you say and everything you do.

You know when he stares at you for longer than a second that he's thinking about you too.

No. I didn't leave because he made me mad, and no, I didn't leave because he had said hurtful things. I left because it was time to walk out, let the tears fall for the last time, clear my heart, and let it go.

Tell me all the things you never said. We can lie here for hours and talk in my bed, I don't have anything to hide

What I need is to be needed, what I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody to eat up all my time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me, a mutual addiction. - Gossip Girl

Look like a girl, act like a lady, think like a man and work like a dog. -Caroline K. Simon

You can make a wish or you can make it happen.

I don't have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to hug you, I have the ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart that's aching to see you smile again.

True friends stay together through thick and thin, through all the rumors and the grins, through all the pain and all the tears, true friends are there throughout the years

I have pretended to go mad in order to tell you the things I need to.
I call it art. Because art is the word we give to our feelings made public.
And art doesn't worry anyone.

Never think you're nothing.  Never cry at night
over not being pretty enough. Never tell yourself
you'll never be good enough.  Because
to someone, you're everything

for every 99 times
you looked me in the eye
and swore you werent lying
i was so blind, i never saw the signs.
i'm getting out tonight and you're not invited

The guy of your dream isn’t some stranger you bump into the street or some guy you just met for a while. It’s the person you find within that one guy you’ve had your eyes set on for so long but just didn’t realize it yet.

I ask myself why, and in that same breath, as I watch you, I get my answer. It's everything about you; it's that teasing smile, that warm scent. It's the curve of your arms, the tousle of your hair, the ring of your voice. It's just everything about you. But more than that, it's everything about me. It's everything about the way you make me laugh, cry, smile and hurt. It's everything about the way you make me feel. And that's everything that I cannot, and would not, want to let go of

I'm sorry for that night.
The one when you put your hand on my knee,
And for some reason I kept moving it off.
Its not that I didn't want it there.
But we both knew we were in the wrong.

And though you'll try, you'll never escape that feeling, there's a place you'd rather be, but you're not there. Seasons change, as well as youthful minds, just how long do you think you can cling to these vines?

And you dropped the note, and we changed the key. You changed yourself, and I changed me. I really didn't see us singing through this. Then you screamed the bridge, and I cried the verse, and our chorus came out unrehearsed. And you smiled the whole way through it

Will you just hold me tight and never let me go?
I know this whole things wrong,
but baby we're invincible

when people walk away from you, let them walk.
don't try to talk another person into staying
with you, loving you, calling you, caring for you,
coming to see you, or staying attached to you.
when people can walk away, let them walk.
your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. 

its those pills that you dont need to take
medicating perfection
now thats a mistake 

We are all here because of sex. 

it's what you do with the screw ups, it's how you handle the experience. That's what you should judge yourself by. -Gilmore Girls

She had to protect herself from herself, from that little girl inside still looking for a happy ending.

You may hold his hand, but I hold his heart, and there are strings attached. And some days I think that if I pulled on one of those strings, he just might come running.

He likes to keep to himself,
but I would also love to keep him.
He may sleep alone, but he's not the only lonely sleeper.

It's agony. Complete, excruciating agony. It's like your heart is being ripped out from your chest and stomped on. You can't breathe. You don't want to eat. You can't function. It's the most intense pain you'll ever feel, and the worst part is there's no way to relieve it. It's unyielding, merciless torture. And you know it's yours for life

You showed me how to face the truth everything that's good in me, I owe to you.

(i dont like him, or BMTH; but this pic is kind of hot!) (:

poll: what was your halloween costume?

celina; i stayed in; i wanted to be alone :/

when you come back, I won't be here.

hello gorgeous ladies; so I know my last post sucked badly,
so I'm here to make it up to you guys.

enjoy the new post.
comments and subs always make me happy! :)
some of the awesome/amazing/wonderful icons that I used were from (acid__icons)
she is my icon drug! :D

We can play it safe, or play it cool,
follow the leader, or make up all the rules,
whatever you want, the choice is yours,
So choose.

Some stop feeling love for every word that they once sung.
May I never lose my youth and If I do, may I be forgettable.

because sometimes it's easier to say, "i hate you", than "i miss you,
i wish we didn't fight; i wish you would call me sometimes."
because sometimes, it's easier to think, screw life, screw work, screw
everything, than admit that you're overwhelmed & feel like you're
drowning. because sometimes, it's easier to admit the simple things
than say the hard things & realize how much you've been struggling
& how much you feel as if life has gone out of your control.

it's overused. it's a cliche. it's corny. it's just a line.
it's illogical. it's troublesome. it's always too abrupt.
it's never on cue. it's difficult to say. it will be held against you.
it's too bold. it's often quite pathetic. it's amazing how after
everything, i love you still works.

So tell me, when I caught him looking at her from across the room during class, does it mean that he'll be the one to mend her broken heart?

But what I hold in my heart is real.
So I'm sticking to my guns.
I never said a fucking word

My theory was that if I kept my distance,
maybe you would see what you're missing.

You're a habit I've been trying to kick aside
As the bottle breaks,
you've been blowing smoke that's filling up my lungs

you ask me, "what`s wrong?"
and you sound so sincere,
but i wonder what you would do
if i said everything that was wrong had to do with you.

I walk these streets for miles
I'm holding back these tears in style
I feel you burn inside me

A tragedy brings misery
Misery loves company
Company is misleading
I've made it this far
Without you

"You have to remember to get back up again."

i don't know if you've ever felt like that.
that you wanted to sleep for a thousand years.
or just not exist. or just not be aware that you do exist.
or something like that. i think wanting that is very morbid,
but i want it when i get like this. that's why i'm trying not
to think. i just want it all to stop spinning.

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her?

I mean that you can give me life, or take it away from me.
You are my complete happiness and my misery.

its those pills that you dont need to take
medicating perfection
now thats a mistake

anytime you mix alcohol
and good looking people,
bad things happen.
[ The Real World ]

a real best friend never
gets sick of you. they always
want to hang out with each
other. they have all the
insiders in the world, no
matter what happens or who
comes along, nothing gets in
the way of their friendships

If you're willing to chase me,
I promise, I’ll run slow

Honestly, if I'm honest with myself.
I've cried myself to sleep.
Crying out, 'Oh God, where are you?
Can you hear my scream way up there.
Through the clouds, in heaven?
Do you even care?'
And honestly if I'm honest with myself.
I hate the song they sing.
It's like salt on an open wound.
But I can't get it out of my head

There's a fine, fine line between love
and a waste of time.

The most difficult phase of your life is not when no one understands you;
it's when you don't understand yourself.

It's just how she lives: loving all the wrong people & wishing all the wrong things.

It's too late baby,
there's no turning around
I've got my hands in my pocket
and my head in a cloud
This is how I do ,
When I think about you

You jump, I jump remember?

my only friends in this world are strangers and they dont know me well
enough to put my heart in danger.

I know how this story goes, because I've read it many times before. Sure, this version has a new beginning but we know they all end the same. With a broken heart, and someone who broke it.

I will always love you,
but I'm no longer in love with you.

everyone claims to be flawed, unique and random.
everyone claims to have the greatest friends, the best taste in music.
everyone wants to think they're something original
(c) carxxcrash_quotes

To be honest, I've never wanted anybody as badly as I want you.

When I was with him, I didn't have to be perfect.
-The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen

Yeah but even when you're here, you're gone.
I miss the old you, and I know lately
I haven't been the easiest person to be around,
but can we just rewind, restart, relove?

poll; have you ever lost someone close to you? (i mean death)
please, leave something nice about them and what you miss, honor their death.

celina: yes my grandmother. she was the sweetest, and meanest grandma, haha. I remember the time she made me eat 4 hotdogs, because I said I could, or when she taught me how to cook or even when she gave me cornrows when I was 12 :)

I hope this made up for my totally sucky last post>
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i wish i could eat your cancer away.

hello dear subscribers :)

how are you? i hope you are all wonderful,
I am sick right now (seems like i always am)
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She watches him from afar. the way his eyes brighten as he smiles,
the way he laughs as if he had just heard the funniest thing ever.
she wanted to tell him how she felt,
but she's too scared to know the answer.
she's the girl who's sitting next to him,
listening to him as he tells her about another girl.
about how he's falling for her, and this girl gets tense.
Because that's exactly how she feels about him.

I just love anything that makes me laugh. I think that's important: those stomach-wrenching, jaw-hopping laughs that you can taste inside and out. Feel them, and let them out.

"and lately ive been feeling, like i dont belong
like the grounds not mine, to walk upon
and ive heard that music echo through the house"
-no lies, just love;; bright eyes

I'm finally learning that even if the
grass is greener on the other side,
it's still pretty green over here.

I wish I had the guts to say
all that I wrote down in this song to your face.
because you're so much more than apologies anyways.
I'm sorry if I've ever changed, or acted like I never meant anything,
but you're so much more to me.

And I hope that someday we could talk
and forget that time ever drew distance between us.
We could make a bridge out of words,
as fragile as it might be, the awkward pauses
and incomprehensible mumbling twisting and
twining into some stronger foothold.
Someday, I might reach you and redeem myself.
But I wouldn't count on it anytime soon.

It's sad how some of us can live so far in the past & refuse to move on. It's sad how so many of us try to move on, but can't & just go back to the past. It's sad how many of us finally do move on, get hurt, & go right back into the past.

I have questions for you that I never got the chance to ask: Do you look like you did back then? Would it make a difference anyway? Do you think of me, when you least expect it- when you're unwrapping a garden hose, or tilting your face to the shower, or making love to someone else? And can you leave it at that, or do you find yourself compulsively sifting through the memories? If I had been the one to leave, would you have written out your heart to me?

I am running out of words to say to you, wondering why I'm wasting my time. Thinking back and wondering why I'm such a fool for loving you.
-Your Biggest Fan; Nevershoutnever

"Don't attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention because you're lonely. Loneliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space. The best thing you can do is know yourself... know what you want."

the last time i spoke to you
we were still only fragments of the people we used to be

Remember when we all lived in the same town, and we thought we'd never leave? Remember when we were young and foolish? We were happy being naive. We thought that everything would stay the same forever, but I guess I should've known better. Times have changed and so have we.

poll; scooby doo vs the flinstones?

celina; scooby doo, duhhh! :)

totally not my best; but i feel terrible right now :/
im gonna go take some nyquil and pass out.

hope you enjoyed<3
love you guys!

I'll love you forever ;; and forever is over.

good evening ladies; hope you guys are wonderful.
im updating right before my show is on (the forgotten!)
listening to: bye bye bye - nysnc

enjoy the update(:

I want...a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe.

"He loved her for being so beautiful, and he hated her for it. He loved how she put shiny stuff on her lips for him, and he also reviled her for it. He wanted her to walk home alone, and he wanted to run after her and grab her up before she could take another step."
-Ann Brashares

Remember the time I told you the way that I felt? That I'd be lost without you and never find myself. Let's hold onto each other above everything else.

We did it with the worst intentions
face in the door, clothes on the floor.

I'm all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke.

I love my past. I love my present.
I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad,
because I have it no longer.

Maybe the reason why you have to stop loving a person
is because fate chose both of you to be friends,
where forever is a lot more possible.

Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window
I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold.

he called me.
it was quiet on the other end.
there was a ruffling noise,
then music blared out of the reciever.
it was our song.

You need to stop lying to me.
You need to stop hurting me.
You need to stop making me cry.
You need to stop letting me down.
And I need to stop letting you.
-Ahsolovley

You're an ass. You can never make up your mind. You
always mock me. I never seem to like you. But all at
the same time, I am completely & madly in love with you

When was the last time you talked to me? Seriously. I feel like I don't even know you. And I would rather me leave than stay and watch you make a fool of me.

please believe me when I say i miss you.
and how i miss our talks, and our ever lasting conversations about the future.
please belive me when I say that I understand.
people change, and they move on.
you'll realize they never needed you, all along
-hippielove_quotes

Sooner or later, you'll realize that even your best friends aren't really there for you. You realize that you're alone in this world and no matter how much you cry, or how much you pray, only you can help yourself

Pretend you don't love him, just pretend, then two things will happen: he'll realize how much he missed you or you'll realize how much you don't need him.

I'm not good at expressing how I feel.
It takes alot for me to be honest.
I don't fall or people easily, and I keep my heart gaurded.
But if I could ever fall in love, I think it'd be with you.

I say I'm over you.
But the truth is,
if by any chance you want me,
I would give you every part of me.

Don't you hate that? Uncomfortable silence. Why do we feel it's necessary to talk about bull in order to feel comfortable? That's when you know you've found someone really special. When you can just shut the hell up for a minute and comfortably share a silence.

Without trust, everything falls apart.
-Scrubs

Just when you least expect it, you start thinking about how he makes you laugh & how you get butterflies when you're with him, & you finally realize after all this time you cared about him more than you thought.

It's the worst feeling in the world to love & hate someone all at the same time. And it's hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It's funny but stupid how you want everything & nothing at the same time. It's crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, & when you want to move on but you're stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go & you can't decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don't know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther & farther away. It's so hard to think back to how things used to be & look at it now and realize that things are different & they may never be the same. You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you wouldn't spend so much time thinking about it.

Sweetie, you give love a bad name. No wonder girls think all guys are the same.
- ©prettyinpearls_quotes

We are all here because of sex.

Poll; Who was your favorite N'sync Member?

Celina;; LANCE! :D omfg -- that was like, my first husband. ahahaaha!